I miss home...

Home.. Now I have 2 homes... In KK and in Brisbane CBD... But of course I miss my home in KK la... Why I miss? I miss my bed.. My parents... My sometimes irritating sometimes disturbing sometimes adorable sisterssss... Of course... I miss my friends as well... Miss the time driving over to Sha's hse for nothing.. Miss the time driving over to Sharon's hse to fetch her yam cha... Miss going Little Italy with Sha.... Miss having yam cha session with all my beloved friends... My laopo is going to UK.. Sob.. Might not see her end of the year? No idea.. If I found a job.. I mite not be able to stay in KK for few months as well.. Plan for studying Japanese might be ruined? Hmm.. Just hope to get a job la.. Now puk gai edi... @@"

Credits to La'enCier for this photo?

Gosh.. I miss my car... Daddy.. Post it over for me... Or someone generous enough to buy me a car here? Don't mind driving any cars... Lorry I also want bahhh!!

Dear Friends.. I am Fine..

Dear frenz.. I am fine.. Thanks for all the concerns.. Really appreciate your care and concern.. Have been busy lately with uni life.. Tomorrow having a quiz and presentation.. Saturday having another mid-exam.. Next week an open book Law exam and on Saturday.. It's the Merdeka Prom Night.. Jess said that Jensen gave us the wrong information.. The prom night will be held on 8th September.. So I will be so free to go!! Yay! And today.. I just handed in few resumes through the job search database in Australia.. So guys.. Wish me lotsa lucksssssssssssss K???? Thankss!

Muaksss! Love you guys so much!

F**ked up Life...

Yeah.. I know some of my friends may think.. Why Dra who doesn't really speak or type foul words suddenly will have such blog title? But I am really upset with what is going on with my life.. This year not many things had been smooth.. Many things happened.. First.. Aunty passed away.. Then relationship ended.. Then my beloved grandpa passed away again.. And I sent in around 5-6 resumes and not one gave me a call.. Day after mid exam and I haven't have the mood to study yet.. Next week presentation and quiz on the same day.. And now I am sick.. Having terrible stomach ache.. Later having lecture and might talk about the quiz next week and also the assignment.. But now I need a rest.. A break.. From all these... I am going home....

Sorry dear readers.. My blog should be an entertaining one.. But lately nothing exciting happened.. Just feel like spilling out all my sorrows... Yeah.. I know I am much luckier than many people out there.. But I just need to express my feelings.. So.. Endure with my bored blog la..

Thanks guys..

Thanks guys.. Those who were with me when I am down... Those who were with me when I am in tears.. Even though couldn't have the real feeling of crying in your shoulder.. But the caring words and moves really touched my heart.. Wouldn't have made through all this without you.. This is really the worst year in my life... Everything came in such a sudden..

Especially have to thank Sha's parents for turning up in the morgue when they saw the news of my grandpa's death.. And thanks to Sharon for trying her best to turn up in the ceremony today even though she wasn't able to.. Don't feel guilty k my dear? Thanks to HataJames for the sms and msn messages.. Thanks to Shannon who said that you will call tonight.. And thanks to others which sent me a word of condolence..

Zillions of thanks guys for standing by my side when I am in need.. Let me understand that there are still warmth in my life.. Life is still acceptable.. Let me understand that I am not left alone.. There are still you guys out there who care about me... You guys are really the best..

Lastly.. Hope mummy will stand strong.. As well as my cousin's family.. Losing both of our closest relatives in a year.. These losts had truly affected all of us in the family.. No matter wherever we are..

Can't really concentrate on my studies also lately.. This Saturday having mid exam.. Haven't really revise much.. Maybe its a good idea to freshen myself up and social more in attending the Malaysian National Day Prom helding in the coming 31st..

Condolence

It has been raining for 3 days in Brisbane.. Drizzling... Heavy rain..

Last night when I was companying Fang in the boutique where she is working.. I suddenly received a shocking news.. My sis suddenly called me and ask me to call her back.. I felt weird as it was 10++am in the morning in KK.. Sis should be in school.. When I call her back... I was stunned by the news.. My grandpa just passed away.. My sisters were all at home... Waiting for my parents' news.. I was shocked... This year I had experienced 2 death in my family.. My aunty and my grandpa.. And couldn't attend both of their funeral.. I wanted to go back.. But mom said unless my cousin is going back then I will go back.. But cousin went back too many times this year as his mom passed away.. So he is not planning to go back..

I am feeling so down like the downpour outside the window right now.. Although I had the feeling that grandpa would pass away soon when I heard that he was committed in the hospital last week.. But mum just told me night before that he was much better.. But who knows.. Next morning he passed away..

Luckily he passed away peacefully.. Wasn't in much pain... I was thinking.. Why is life so unpredictable? My family was planning to celebrate his birthday this month.. Uncle from US might also come back to celebrate for him.. But instead of celebrating his birthday this month.. We had to tender his lost......

Although wasn't that close to him as he was in Kudat for the pass few years.. Came down to KK only recently.. But from my photos when I was still a baby.. He was also one of them who has taken care of the small and troublesome me.. He is old... Lovable.. Adorable.. I feel so guilty for not being able to go back for his funeral.. To pay him a last respect....

Could someone buy me an air ticket? I wanna go back...

New Style

Lately had been shopping a lot.. Yeah yeah.. Know shouldn't waste money as I am not earning money yet.. And using Aussie Dollars.. But who cares.. 'Sat Luin' tai sai what.. Haha~ Jk la... But really shopped a lot.. Now puk again.. =.=" Have to control edi.. Why suddenly change of style? Inspiration by my housemates.. All suddenly wear heels.. Wear stokings.. Okie laa... Since they are already taller than me.. If I don't wear high heels with them.. I will look so short when I am standing beside them.. LoL~ Okie.. Stop these crappy talks.. Look at my new look and comments please?

Below are photos took the other day.. Had another make up session... Girls.... *Roll eyes* *giggle*

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Life is so unpredictable.. You won't know what will happen tomorrow.. Day after.. And even years later.. Don't know why.. Today have such strong feelings in writing such post.. Hahaz.. I guess after experiencing lots of stuffs these few weeks.. I am looking at life more differently? Or am I just escaping from giving a deeper thought on my future? I am feeling lost like an old man with Parkinson disease in the middle of the road.. Hahaz.. Weird expression huh.. I guess I need more excitement in life.. More caring friends.. More fun in life.. More... More everything nice.. Guess I should social more.. Shouldn't keep myself in this small circle of friends.. But how? No idea.. When I see people spending lovely and fun time with their friends.. I am really amazed.. Jealous.. Envious.. How I wish I could be somewhere where all my friends are.. Where I could get new friends.. Where I could get closer to my friends.. Where when I am in need someone would be out there to lend me their shoulder..

Hahaz.. Should stop all this crappy talk.. Will scare you guys.. Well.. Just wanted to express my feelings... Nothing much to blog about also...

For Reason, Season or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season…

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Grabbed this from Susanna's blog in friendster.. Ray's sis.. Well inspired?

Weight..

Yuhuuu guyss... Sorry for not being able to update lately... Hehe~ Cause I kept hilang usb drives.. So le.... My house now no more usb drives to lose.. Hehe~ Cause I have lotsa photos to post up but don hv the thing to use.. Mao bian laaa~ Hehe~ Okie...

Well.. Lately I have been on diet.. Yeah.. I pretty unhealthy diet actually... But my weight has went down for around 3 kilos? Yeahhh~ I am so happy~ My housemate is trying out a product.. If there are some obvious change in her.. I will go and get that product too~ Yeahh~ I wanna be skinny again! Like how I was when I was in high school... Less than 50kgs...

Let you know what have I been eating this few days..

Day before - A bowl of miso soup and a pie
Yesterday - Half plate of vegetables and a bowl of instant noodle
Today - Hahaha~ 4 biji of fish ballsss~ Yeahh!

Hehe~ Okie.. I will update more next time.. ^^