Last post of the year

First of all, Happy last day of 2009...
Recalling back to what a year I had this year
Really brought back heaps of memories
Lots of tears shed
Lots of memories to mark on my memorabilia
Lots of things happened that changed me
Lots of things happened that made a large change in my life
Few friendships went down to drain
Gained many new friends that treasure me
There were really lots of ups and downs in my year 2009
Guess this is the year that really made me grow up
Made me grown to be more mature
Made me know the world out there better
All these gains and losses really build a stronger inner me

Experiences
This year I experienced a lot
A change of friendship
Some turned bad and some got better and closer
Change of personalities of people I care
Losing trust on someone I trusted
Disappointments again and again
How someone you trust could actually hurt you deeply
and so on...

Gains
A life
Another certificate
An Australian PR
More friends that I treasure
New good friends whom treasure me for who I am not for what I have
and someone who treasures and cares

Losses
Time and youth
Friends that I considered as good friends

Flashing back on all these...
Looks like I gained more this year than things I lose
I would not look back and stop at this point
I am looking forward to the years that are coming ahead
A future that is waiting for me to build
A path that is waiting for me to walk
A career that is waiting for me to work hard on
A whole new experience that is waiting for me to explore.......

Good Bye 2009 and Hola 2010......

Perplexity

Am I just demanding too much?
Or do I have the right to be demanding?
Am I too selfish?
Or do I have the right to be selfish?
Am I exaggerating?
Or do I have the right to exaggerate?
Am I too imaginative?
Or do I have the right to imaginative?
Am I bothering too much?
Or do I have the right to bother?
Do I deserve to be treated that way?
Or do I deserve better?
Maybe I am just not worthy enough....
Maybe I am just not special enough....

Found this is my drawer....

Today... When I was trying to clean up my drawer.... I found this......
Gosh... I swear I won't be able to write this kinda essay anymore.... Never remember I could write Chinese that well... Hahahaha~~ Cleaning up my drawer really brought back lotsa memories.... I found all my certificates I had obtained since I was a kid.... Found letters I got from my friends when I was in high school.. Love letter from first love... Diaries I wrote when I was young and silly... Diaries on the guy I adored..... Book that I wrote down my sms with someone.... LoLz... Youth..... Hahahahaha~~~~~~ I did do many silly things.... These all have sentimental value that I would never wanna throw away.. Because it represents my past....

Contradiction

A month ago I can't wait to come back home
Back for less than a month
I can't wait to go back to Brisbane..
Sigh....

I am starting to miss my dears in Brisbane...
Starting to miss my life full of freedom
Starting to miss my lonely life
Starting to miss my quiet life
Starting to miss Brisbane's clean and quietness....

我的最爱

绿茶一直是我的最爱
总之是绿茶味的东东
我都超级超级喜爱
今天突然想学学人家 hi tea
拿了那杯在韩国买的绿茶拉铁
又拿了妹妹的绿茶生日蛋糕
坐在电脑前面看刑IV
呵呵 真的很怀念旧的港片
真的不爱看现代的港片
终是在做些争风吃醋的剧情
什么溏心风暴啦、富贵门啦什么的
没有一个我看得完的
难道是我怀旧吗? 哈哈~~

离别

Never thought that hearing the news of your sudden decision to leave
Will make me shed tear
Will make me so upset
Although we have known each other for few years
Only this year we started to hang out more
I wished I could turn back the time
And tell myself how worthy you are as a friend
How adorable you are as a friend
Times that we spent together
Things that we had done together
How nice and caring you are
How helpful you are as a friend
How great you are as a friend
All these flashed back into my mind...
How I wished I could fly back to Brisbane....
Before your departure...
I can't believe that I would not even be able to see you when I am back in Brisbane....
I will definitely miss you....

Graduated again..

My classmates in Tafe.. The one in red is my teacher....

With luck, I accidentally passed my Diploma in Interpreting... In our Mandarin class of 13, I am one of the 3 who passed.. Opps... ^^" Haha~ Yeah.. Difficult.. Some failed some had to wait for resit next year..... Passed my QUT unit too.... Not bad lah... This semester quite smooth despite friendship problems...

However, due to my stoopid holiday to Korea.... (stoopid because of the stupid tour guide.. Wil update about it..) I missed my graduation ceremony... ^^" So nothing much...... Actually lots to update but too lazy.... ^^

Disappointments..

Sigh..
Why do i have to bear with disappointments within 2 weeks?
I came home to relax not stressed out..
I am came to travel, not to think about something else..
I have to learn..
Learn how to let go..
How to enjoy myself and worry less

Emptyness

First night coming back to my hometown
Completed my mission and reason I came back early for
Now I felt so empty
Had the feeling that the reason I came back for might not be worthy enough
Or had been put to waste
I wonder should I be that worried
Should I really give up my fun, excitement and money that I could have earned these few days
Should I have worn myself out past few days just to rush myself back home for it
But get all these disappointments in exchange...
I really have been wondering...

Being back with my dearest family is happy
I miss my dearest papa and mama
But there's just someone here who gave me all these disappointments..
That made me wanna go back immediately...
Made me wanna give up on her..
All my dearest friends ain't back yet....
Please do come back to me ASAP....
I need your comfort and company....