我又想家了.......

我又想家了
突然又想念起家的美好
爸妈的关怀与温暖
好友们的体贴与了解
食物们的廉价与美味

好想家
真的很想很想
若想Harry Potter里面的魔法师一样
可以disapparate回家就好了……

想念嗲爸妈
想念妈妈的温柔
想念爸爸的调皮
想念妹妹的吵闹
想念好友们的陪伴
想念妈妈做的美食
想念与爸爸玩闹
想念大家的疼爱
想念大马的美食
想念家里的小红 （爸爸要卖了…… =( ）
想念家里一切的美好

每次想起你们
我觉得我真的很幸福……

Unpredictable

Life could be really unpredictable
One minute you were friends
Next minute you could be enemies
One minute you were good friends
Next minute you guys might never talk much again
One minute you met someone new
Next minute you might be in love

I never realise I could experience so much in such a short period
This year I lost 3 whom I considered as best friends
But at the same time I gained a lot
I gained many new lovely friends
I gained new good friends
I got to know few special someone(s)
I got to experience many different stuffs
I got to do something I never thought I will do
I learned many new things
I learned how to forgive and forget
I learned how to mind my own business
I learned that I have many friends who care for me out there
I learned how wonderful, caring and lovely my parents are

I guess I really had to thank God for letting me experience all these
At least I know what I should do in future if things like that happen
I really wanna thank all my lovely friends in Brisbane and Malaysia
For being such sweethearts and helped me through my rough times
No matter you were near or far
You guys showed love that touched my heart
By caring, listening, advising, bringing me out to have fun...
Allow me to name all of them
Sha, Ying, Yan, Kelly, Fiona, Yvonne, SY, Fong, YS, Yuyu, Ivy, Pau, Ashleigh, Mary, Reagan, Gold Coast gang, and all others that supported me verbally or in writing no matter on my blog or MSN
Thank you so much for being there for me
If I am facing all these alone, I won't be the strong Dra I am right now....
Love ya' all soooo much.... Muaxxxx

迷惘

最近感觉很迷惘
所做的决定正确与否
所做的行为超乎原则
感觉我不再是我
不再是那冷静的我
不再是那高尚的我
我竟然做了一件傻的可以的事
是傻？
还是饥渴？
还是那才是我心所要？
还是那才是真正的我....
有些疯狂
有些激动
有些大胆.....

亲们
请告诉我
我真的做对了吗？
真的选对了吗？
所做的都超越了我的原则
怎么办.......

A phone call

A phone call I made yesterday really melted my heart
It was a phone call to my dearest parents
My sister told me that mama called when I was away
Papa was really upset that I got my PR
He thought that sis got her PR as well
He was worried and said why all daughters went away and do not wanna come home
He was really upset
He even requested to go for a day trip with my family
I didn't realise I hurt them....
My sis was silly enough to make them worry more...
But this call really brighten my life...
My dad was so positive..
I was crying my eyes out when I was talking to them
I told them how much I love them and how much they meant to me
I never intent to hurt them
My intention was good
I didn't want papa to work so hard
He has 3 younger sisters to take care of
I wanted to be independent
I feel bad spending his money
But his words really touched my heart
"You are my daughter, it's my duty to spend money on you... My duty will cease once you get married.. But if he ill-treated you we will skin him"
When I told him I am really worried about my studies
Worried that I will fail my diploma and put his money to waste
"Don't worry about failing it, just slow down your pace, relax, I don't want a PHD for your health.. Take care of your health, your stomach..."
I can't stop shedding tears after hearing all these..
My friend was so shocked when he saw me crying..
He thought something serious happened..
I am really grateful and thankful that God gave me such lovely and caring parents
They are the best I have in life
I would rather have nothing than losing them....

Life Changes..

I realised how life could really change
Looks like my life have been changing like rocket
This second I was worried and stressed
Next second a simple call made my stress and worries faded just like that
This minute I was still having the same thought
Next minute my mind soul and spirit changed
Today I am still feeling stress about my status
Next day I am informed that my status has been approved
Gosh....
I never realise how life could change that fast...
Dad said that I have to slow down, stress less and relax...
Life pace had been speeding up a lot lately
But I can't just slow down before my holidays start
I had to speed up instead..
I wonder will I be able to cope
But I am not who I was anymore
I guess with all these support and care
I will be able to survive
I will be able to slow down a bit
I will be able to stress less
I will be able to walk through all these......

迷失

我想每个人都有感觉迷失的时候
我现在的心情就是如此这般
这几天不知道我是怎么了
感觉现在做的不知道是不是我想要的
好想放弃
父母的压力让我喘不过气
上课的压力让我难以呼吸
这些都是我前所未有的压力
我知道有人会说过了这关
我又会再成长、成熟
因为有了新的体验
我想听的并不是这些
我想女人都是这样吧
都想听一些好听的话、鼓励的话
而不是一堆的长篇大论
道理什么的我又不是不知道

昨晚我发了一次很大的脾气
不是对人发的 是电脑
也第一次很冲动的买了方的MACMINI
又叫朋友帮我买APPLE鼠标和键盘
虽然冲动我做事还是有分寸的
这些东西全买下也很便宜
根本不到800澳币
冲动的我还是会理智的

我承认…………
我冲动
我暴躁
我迷失
我迷糊
我烦恼
我忧愁
有时寂寞
有时孤独
有时孤僻
有时沉重
有时………………

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兴奋

最近心情特别好
也许是因为PR快批下来了
也许是因为两个星期的假期让我过的很轻松
也许是因为年终假期快到了
想到PR快批下来
就已经没心情读书了
想到年终假期回去安排的节目
全身的adrenaline都快爆发了

不过有点奇怪的是
突然回想起在中学初一时搞的恶作剧
想起我和几位朋友一起偷看一个女生的日记
里面写着 “怎么办，真的不知道怎么选……”
选什么呢？
她说的是她很多男生追
不知道怎么选
哈哈哈～～
不懂为什么突然会勾起这样的回忆………………

担忧……

世界末日真的要来临了吗？
我真的开始担心了
今晚出门前
看了一个姐妹发给我的邮件
说的是倪柝声弟兄 (Watchman Nee) 在监狱里的经历
我的心颤了一下
让我觉得我好像真的很久没做基督徒该做的事
很久没祷告
很久没聚会
很久没读圣经
看了倪弟兄因坚持人们所谓的信仰
坚持并勇敢得当一个骄傲的基督徒
而放弃了自由
让我觉得我真的很幸福
真的很惭愧
在一个那么幸福的环境里
我却没有好好的爱主

后来
好友告诉我印尼发生地震了
我顿时傻眼
顿时吓傻了
开始担心我的家人
担心我亲爱的朋友们
印尼与马来西亚实在太近了
开始有了很多不吉利的想法
呸呸呸
回去我真的要好好珍惜家人亲人朋友们
澳洲突然来的沙尘暴
印尼的地震
真的把我震醒了
主啊，你真的要来了吗？
真的要来惩罚这个充满罪恶的世界吗？