A phone call

A phone call I made yesterday really melted my heart
It was a phone call to my dearest parents
My sister told me that mama called when I was away
Papa was really upset that I got my PR
He thought that sis got her PR as well
He was worried and said why all daughters went away and do not wanna come home
He was really upset
He even requested to go for a day trip with my family
I didn't realise I hurt them....
My sis was silly enough to make them worry more...
But this call really brighten my life...
My dad was so positive..
I was crying my eyes out when I was talking to them
I told them how much I love them and how much they meant to me
I never intent to hurt them
My intention was good
I didn't want papa to work so hard
He has 3 younger sisters to take care of
I wanted to be independent
I feel bad spending his money
But his words really touched my heart
"You are my daughter, it's my duty to spend money on you... My duty will cease once you get married.. But if he ill-treated you we will skin him"
When I told him I am really worried about my studies
Worried that I will fail my diploma and put his money to waste
"Don't worry about failing it, just slow down your pace, relax, I don't want a PHD for your health.. Take care of your health, your stomach..."
I can't stop shedding tears after hearing all these..
My friend was so shocked when he saw me crying..
He thought something serious happened..
I am really grateful and thankful that God gave me such lovely and caring parents
They are the best I have in life
I would rather have nothing than losing them....

Life Changes..

I realised how life could really change
Looks like my life have been changing like rocket
This second I was worried and stressed
Next second a simple call made my stress and worries faded just like that
This minute I was still having the same thought
Next minute my mind soul and spirit changed
Today I am still feeling stress about my status
Next day I am informed that my status has been approved
Gosh....
I never realise how life could change that fast...
Dad said that I have to slow down, stress less and relax...
Life pace had been speeding up a lot lately
But I can't just slow down before my holidays start
I had to speed up instead..
I wonder will I be able to cope
But I am not who I was anymore
I guess with all these support and care
I will be able to survive
I will be able to slow down a bit
I will be able to stress less
I will be able to walk through all these......

迷失

我想每个人都有感觉迷失的时候
我现在的心情就是如此这般
这几天不知道我是怎么了
感觉现在做的不知道是不是我想要的
好想放弃
父母的压力让我喘不过气
上课的压力让我难以呼吸
这些都是我前所未有的压力
我知道有人会说过了这关
我又会再成长、成熟
因为有了新的体验
我想听的并不是这些
我想女人都是这样吧
都想听一些好听的话、鼓励的话
而不是一堆的长篇大论
道理什么的我又不是不知道

昨晚我发了一次很大的脾气
不是对人发的 是电脑
也第一次很冲动的买了方的MACMINI
又叫朋友帮我买APPLE鼠标和键盘
虽然冲动我做事还是有分寸的
这些东西全买下也很便宜
根本不到800澳币
冲动的我还是会理智的

我承认…………
我冲动
我暴躁
我迷失
我迷糊
我烦恼
我忧愁
有时寂寞
有时孤独
有时孤僻
有时沉重
有时………………

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P/s: Okie.. You might think I am BS-ing and simply SAY that this famous and gorgeous lady is my BFF because I don't have proof.. Oh well.. I don't have a photo with her because we always talk and bitch too much when we meet... =D

兴奋

最近心情特别好
也许是因为PR快批下来了
也许是因为两个星期的假期让我过的很轻松
也许是因为年终假期快到了
想到PR快批下来
就已经没心情读书了
想到年终假期回去安排的节目
全身的adrenaline都快爆发了

不过有点奇怪的是
突然回想起在中学初一时搞的恶作剧
想起我和几位朋友一起偷看一个女生的日记
里面写着 “怎么办，真的不知道怎么选……”
选什么呢？
她说的是她很多男生追
不知道怎么选
哈哈哈～～
不懂为什么突然会勾起这样的回忆………………

担忧……

世界末日真的要来临了吗？
我真的开始担心了
今晚出门前
看了一个姐妹发给我的邮件
说的是倪柝声弟兄 (Watchman Nee) 在监狱里的经历
我的心颤了一下
让我觉得我好像真的很久没做基督徒该做的事
很久没祷告
很久没聚会
很久没读圣经
看了倪弟兄因坚持人们所谓的信仰
坚持并勇敢得当一个骄傲的基督徒
而放弃了自由
让我觉得我真的很幸福
真的很惭愧
在一个那么幸福的环境里
我却没有好好的爱主

后来
好友告诉我印尼发生地震了
我顿时傻眼
顿时吓傻了
开始担心我的家人
担心我亲爱的朋友们
印尼与马来西亚实在太近了
开始有了很多不吉利的想法
呸呸呸
回去我真的要好好珍惜家人亲人朋友们
澳洲突然来的沙尘暴
印尼的地震
真的把我震醒了
主啊，你真的要来了吗？
真的要来惩罚这个充满罪恶的世界吗？

孤独

突然发现其实我是喜欢孤独的
难道是患上自闭症吗？
我不了解
也许是讨厌责任、讨厌承担
宁可做一个孤单的人……
潇潇洒洒的过我自己的生活
要睡就睡，要干嘛就干嘛……
我觉得我的生活不再是我的
我不喜欢受捆绑
我喜欢自由
我喜欢无忧无虑

脾气暴躁是我的缺点
不过既然了解了我这点脾气
也应该知道不该惹我
所以说我这种脾气注定比较适合孤僻
这样我就不会乱想人发脾气了
你说不是吗？

Tonness of Deadliness!!! >.<

Sorry for not updating lately.... Now... I felt that I needed more time to complete all my tasks.. Felt that so many things left undone.. So many deadlines to rush... @@ Ahhhhh~~~ I believe I will get crazy soon if I don't get a break... But semester break is soooo far away!!! >.<>.< ARGHHH~~~~~ Okie.. Back to assignment..... Actually I had lots of things to update.... But didn't have the time to do so..... Now... 得闲死唔得闲病

Temperamental

Lately I am feeling really temperamental...
Feel like throwing my temper on someone...
Feel like breaking all the dishes at home...
Feel like breaking down like a baby into someone's arms...
Just feel like breaking something or hitting something...
I have no idea why am I feeling so...
Maybe it's because of all those things I have to do every week...
Maybe it's because I don't like being the elder sister...
Maybe it's because I like to be left alone...
Maybe it's because of all these dramas that happened lately...
Maybe it's because of all this stress I get studying both diploma and uni...
Or maybe... I am just homesick....
I don't know...
I guess I need to chill.. A lot.....

无奈

不要把一切想得那么美好
没想到10年的感情，
敌不过贱人的一张嘴……
这就是所谓的狗嘴吐不出象牙？

Christina's Bday

I was invited to Christina's bday on the 18th last month.. She is a nice Hongkie girl I knew from my International Finance class last year... ^^ (P/s: No.. She is not that biatch... ^^)

The Bday girl and her cake... She is hungry.... LoL~
Bday gal and mua... ^^
Her girl friends and me... ^^ The girl next to me is Debra also from Msia.. ^^"
Group photo... ^^ Allllll Hongkies... =)

Its nice to get to know some new friends... Though only talked that night... Bsides cz of my 'cool' character... Didn't talk that much... LoL~ But I did have fun~ =)

Miss home...

Maybe it's because all these dramas that happened lately,
Or maybe because been feeling lonely,
Or maybe because been feeling stressed and tired,
Or maybe...
This is the longest time I left home for such a long long time...
Normally I will go back for 2 or 3 weeks during July holiday..
Or even 10 days during semester break...
Yeah I am a spoil brat...
I miss home...
I miss my parents' arms that I could go into...
I miss laughter in my family...
I miss my dearest mommy that cares so much for me...
I miss my playful daddy that 'tortures' me sometimes...
I miss my naughty sisters that give me headaches all times..
I miss my true-est friends who never abandon me....
I miss my bestest car that drives me wherever I wanna go...
I miss the cheapest food that could make me drool...
I miss being pampered and loved by my family and friends...
I have never been away from home that long...
Does anyone miss me? =(

Biatch.. Please mind your own business

There's this biatch who either envy my sis too much or really have nothing to do or is brainless... We don't really mind that you backstab us... But please.... Be a civilised person... Stop talking bad about our parents... It's none of your business what our parents do... Actually... It isn't even your business what did my sis do.... Who is she with... Someone talk bad about our dearest dad.. Biatch.. You are not even Malaysian.. How the hell you know who my dad is? How well do you know us? Even my closest friends here don't know much about my family.. What position are you in to BS so much? We are civilised and educated well enough to be what we are... Well.. All I can say is.... We can't blame you how your upbringing was.... =)

P/s: I think with everything you said, we could sue you for libel.. (If you duno wat libel is? Check the dictionary IF you have one...) But we are well educated, so we can't blame you for being so ignorant... =)

3 days without internet

I woke up early on Friday morning... My usual routine once I woke up? Facebook-ing... Yeahh.. I admit I am a freakin' facebook 'stalker'... Haha~ Don't get me wrong.. I would only stalk on your applications... Your flowers or your plants.... Mafia war... etc... Hahahaha~

Okie... Friday morning I woke up reaaally early.. I bet I should thank my early classes... I now wake up before 10:30am... Working at 12pm.. Usually wake up at 11am... But I woke up at 9:30am.... =____=" Then I realised my line is not working!!!! It needed password and I forgot what the password was and my housemate was still asleep.... Great... =.=" Then I watched Jap dramas... After work my housemate called me telling that we cant login... And I called up the internet provider and he said he will ask someone to return our call.. At the end... We still didn't get our internet back... >.<

We paid by direct debit.. And we always thought they direct debited from our account... But they had the wrong account number and they disconnected our line.... Therefore..... No line for the weekend... (FYI: Australian offices don't open on weekends)... Thank god I had things to do for the weekend.. Saturday noon went to company Vicki sing k... She is gonna enter a singing competition... Then we had dinner at Sunnybank at night... Sunday went to buy Yuyu's bday present with Fang then night went to sing k again.. (Yuyu's bday party)...

3 days without internet? I wasn't able to complete my task given by our LOTE group.... Without internet I wasn't able to do research on my discussion topic that I had to hand in today... Without internet I had panick whole weekend about submitting my discussion topic online.....

HOW CAN I LIVE WITHOUT INTERNET??? NO I CANT!!!

Dear Mr. Internet, Will you marry me? >.<

My first day at college

=______=
Today woke up at 6:55am...... Why? Cause from orientation yesterday, then we were told that class starts next day..... Tiam lah this TAFE.... And after orientation and my first lesson today, I realised I paid AUD6000++ to get tortured.... Almost everyday for this semester, I have to wake up at 6:55am.... Great... I haven't woke up that early since TTSS years... My earliest class in Uni was during Year 1... 10am... And I nvr went to that lecture cz that dude was too boring... (Okay, half was because I cant wake up) Well at least I pass...

TTSS years, only have to wake up at 6:30am cause I only had to brush up and change into sch uniform.. Get into the car then wear socks and shoes and eat breakfast... Now... 8am start class... SHYT.... =.=" Have to wake up that early to start struggling out of the cozy bed... (p/s: Winter now..) Then go brush up.... Start 'mi mi mo mo' + gazing on my laptop for few minutes... Then change and make up..... Thank god my bus station is only less than 5 minutes away... And thank god that it only take less than 5 minutes to destination... And another 5 minutes to walk to the block where my classes are....

First day in class.... Got to know 2 Japanese (Ayako - Solicitor, Makiko), 2 Taiwanese (Amy, Karen), 1 Singaporean aka gehpoh aunty (Joanne) and 1 Korean (Jung Eun).... (Wao.. I am impressed of my memory.. LoL~) Then at the beginning of the class I am pretty sure they think that I am very cool... Cause I must look really fierce without smiling as I was day dreaming as usual.. Not fully awake from my dream...

Started to do sight translation during the last hour of the 4 hours class... (Sight translation-Terus translate from the document you get). My brain was either rusty or still asleep. Simple words like 'Duty-free' also don't remember how to translate. Then... Cant remember how to write 免税的税... Forgive me... Haven't been writing Chinese since graduate TTSS.. I do use Chinese in my daily life.. But blame the amazing computer programs please.... ^^

After class, went to get my student ID done... Thank god the queue is not as long as yesterday.. After that, went to have lunch with Christina in the city.. Then went shopping... Went to Lancome counter and I was gazing at the sign for about 1min++.. Christina asked what happen and what am I looking at... Without moving my gaze from the sign I pointed at it... It's actually a sign saying that there will be a $20 off for purchases of $150 and above... =.="

Conclusion: I am sleep walking whole day.... Now... I am sleep typing.. Cause its time to go to bed... =)

Harry POTTER!!!

I was looking at the movie time for Transformers for tomorrow as no one wants to watch it with me or they have already watched it with someone.... I found a friend who haven't watch it... Then... I saw HARRY POTTER IS COMING ONSCREEN ON WEDNESDAY!! I was soooo excited... And started to 'drag' everyone to go with me.. ^^ I wanted to watch the premiere~~ But the first premiere would b at 9.30am... I don't wanna struggle from keeping my eyes open and my excitement to wake up that early for the movie.... And I wanted to watch it on the 25 metre cinema.... 12++pm would be the 2nd one.... 3.40 would be the third... As I love to share my excitement with many many friends..... I chose the 3.40 one as all of them would be out of school and work by that time... ^^ I am soooo happy~~ I am gonna watch twice like all others!!!


Without hesitating, I bought all 6 tickets for everyone..... Muahaha~ Why I love Southbank Cinema? Cause its cheap and it has a huge 25 metre screeen~ ^^

Sharon... This would be the first Harry Potter we wouldn't be watching together....... >.<

Personality of a Pisces

Got this from Facebook.. Felt that it's quite accurate.. It was in Mandarin and I wanted to train my brain to translate it to English.. Will shorten it... Bear with me... ^^

Most horoscope explains Pisces as women's horoscope as Pisces easily cry and sigh. Nature: What is Pisces most natural personality? Kind? Weak? Gentle? That's untrue, Pisces love to ponder, in most circumstances, they over think too much. No other horoscope is better in observing and analyzing people than the Pisces. You could say that they are sensitive, but when this kinda sensitivity is correctly utilised, no one could deal with people better than the Pisces. To the Pisces, it would rather be said that kindness is a method to live than being its natural personality. Almost every article mentioned that the Pisces are gentle. The Pisces are gentle because they are sensitive enough to understand people's small changes even from people's action.

Pisces' fatal weakness: Weak
Pisces are disappointing in the reality, being weak, skeptical, inferior, indecisive... There is a reason behind Pisces being indecisive. In making the same decision, a Sagittarius may only consider two consequences; however a Pisces would think of up to 10 consequences because he/she really worries too much. To make it simple, Pisces would think of the different effects that could be caused by the 'situation', whether or not it wil cause misunderstandings etc. (Though most of the time Pisces are impulsive and might blurt out something)

As for being skeptical or paranoid, that could be linked with the personality of being inferior. Although Pisces could easily understand someone's purpose and see through facts, they often could not stand firm on their perspective. This is because the Pisces are unwilling to accept the fact and most of the time lack of self confidence. For example, a female Pisces would still have hopes if a guy would not tell her he doesn't love her anymore even though she knows the fact. The Pisces is weak, you could mock on his/her cowardice or weakness. However different Pisces has different endurance limit. When a Pisces is at his/her limit, you might wanna be careful as they could ignore sensibility, law and even dignity.

Pisces best virtue: Affection/Relationship 感情
Rather than saying that the Pisces lived for 'Love', it would be better to describe them as living for 'Relationships'. The most important thing in the world is relationship for the Pisces. Any type of relationships are important, family is more important than love. Pisces could forgive everything as long as that person treats him/her well whole-heartedly. Don't think you could deceive the Pisces as they are smarter than you. He/She knows things better than anyone.

For a guy, a female Pisces could give you anything, from being gentle, loving you whole-heartedly, adorable, considerable... For a lady, it depends on your luck when you find a male Pisces. If you found one who likes to play, not ambitious, and already at the age of 25, please leave him as soon as possible unless you are a rich lady who is looking for a lover (no one is more suitable than the Pisces). Or else you will be experiencing the worst marriage and life, Amen... However if you found an ambitious Pisces or even one with a successful career, thank Lord because you are the luckiest lady. You could get all the care and happiness, including those that could be bought with or without wealth as a Pisces is willing to give everything to the person he loves in order to make her happy.

The word fairness is important for the Pisces. Always remember in Pisces' world there ain't any true or false. However how would a Pisces treat others (especially in a relationship)? Fairness is the key word. For example, if this Pisces had 10-20 girlfriends before, he won't bother how many boyfriends you ever had. However if Pisces accidentally had a 'one night stand', he would choose not to bother if you had one. Even if your Pisces is very innocent and you are his/her first, he/she will forgive that you were once a playboy/girl as long as you make up with enough care and sincerity. Therefore, its easy to be with a Pisces as long as you could guarantee to give and devote fairly. On the other hand, if the Pisces felt that your care and love isn't enough (as in lesser than he/she gave you), after suffering for some time, he/she will lessen his/her care and love towards you.

Believe it or not, a Pisces is very realistic and fussy in this aspect. A Pisces care less, therefore unluckily, a Pisces would seek for perfection in things he/she cares. Being perfect isn't being loyal nor having perfect figure, Pisces wants a 'perfect love'. You could occasionally say 'I love you', but you have to mean it when you say it. You could occasionally go shopping with her, but you must be happy with you are companying her. You could occasionally sweet talk but must guarantee that you have lesser sweet talks with others than her. Many people thinks that simply saying 'I love you', sending sms from time to time, buying decent things for the Pisces will make them feel they are being loved. But unfortunately, most of them are too smart and could differentiate whether these actions are out of sincerity or not. Do not be happy if you had ever used this kind of trick on a female Pisces, its because she does not reject people easily. Therefore, be truthful to a Pisces, she will love you as much as you love her; at least its better than offending her right?

Many said that Pisces are romantic. But most people who knows Pisces (especially male) would not be able to experience the romance of a Pisces. This is because he might have tonnes of romantic ideas but does not have the confidence to execute them. And in the situation of a confident Pisces, you might not think he is romantic because you might not be the one he is looking for.

A male Pisces might 'Like' someone easily (Like not love!), after being together with this girl, there is a huge possibility that he will realise that this girl is not someone who could give him the perfect love he is looking for, in other words, soulmate. He/She would be very realistic and knows that he/she would not have any future besides memory with this person. When a Pisces had less sweet talk and action, this would mean that he/she knows that this person is not their soulmates and is too kind to breakup this relationship.

Conclusion
To be a good Pisces, the most essential element is career. One day if you found a successful Pisces, do not hesitate and do not let him go. As there is a high possibility he will fulfill your dreams with you.
　 　　　 　　 　　

Things change

The sky isn't always blue,
Grey when its gonna rain,
Orange, pink or purple during dusk and dawn...
Not every friendship could last forever,
Some could be affected by other friendship,
By the distance or time,
By work or life that is moving on everyday,
By misunderstandings,
Once upon ago you might be bestest friends,
Shared everything in life with them,
But this friendship may not last like how you thought it would...
Misunderstandings may ruin a friendship,
But it might also strengthen a friendship...
A hand couldn't clap by itself...
Initiation is needed in order to maintain...
The word "each other" is important in a friendship...
All these reminded me of the graduation autographs we wrote when we were in primary school...
Friends forever, forget me not, 友谊万岁, etc. were our favourite words...
But how many friendship that had really maintained since then?
Always bear in mind....
Not everything could last forever...
However I didn't mean to not treasure friendship...
Treasure those who treasure you...
Be thankful to God for what you have now...
Be thankful to God that I have more than 5 true friends...
Yes... These true friends are friends I believe that would be able to maintain forever...
Time, distance, life won't make our friendship shatter..
However we will treasure our growing up together..
I believe in God and believe in fate...
We are meant to be together we will be together forever my dear friends.....

没有去不到的未来

我突然清醒了
没有去不到的未来，
只有回不到的过去……
就好像中学时与同伴们好友们的美好时光，
就好像中学时被别人欺负的痛苦时光，
就好像刚到澳洲的新鲜感觉，
就好像过去与她们在这里一起逛街唱K的时光，
好像已经离我越来越远……
留在这里的选择是否正确，
留在这里是否值得，
最近早已经对我早已布置好的未来产生怀疑，
以前所计划的，
大学毕业，申请成为PR并工作两年，再到英国与好友聚集一起读硕士
这些梦好像离我好远
工作找不到，PR申请也不知道顺不顺利，
下学期却破坏了原本计划，
跑去读翻译
不过我要相信自己，
过去是回不到的，
不过未来却是要自己努力的，
身体里的懒惰虫，
别再在我里面生活了，
找找下一个VICTIM吧
奋斗! 努力! 加油吧, PHAEDRA HING!!!

Another Late Post: My bday..

Okie.. I shud hv posted this entry monthsss ago.... Bday celebration had started during the weekend... Vicki's bday was on 20th Feb and mine is just more than a week later.. Then we decided to celebrate it together.. My bday was on a Tuesday.. Bday party was on 27th.. Partied for 2 nights.. 27th.. Vicki and mine @ CM Concert 红馆.. 28th.. Ben's @ Echoes.. LoL~

The gals that attended the party... Guys were shy.... =.="

The 2 bday gals singing.. Haha~

The 211 gang... Last few standing up.. The rest went home... ^^"

Dapat ambil gambar begitu lagikah?
Lastly.. A photo to show my SS skill.. ^^

NEXT: 28th FEB - Ben's bday.. ^^

Met Kevin for the first time in Brisbane after Kevin and I have been here for years... The gal next to me is Pei Shan from Malaysia too.. ^^

Lester Lu and me.. Everytime we meet up sure in Karaoke.. From UK to KK to Brisbane.. ^^"

Ben's bday treat... Whole jug of beer all for himself... ^^Adeline helping Ben... Hoho~
Me and the bday boi... 4 1/4 years old... Memang lil kid not adult yet.. ^^
Me and 2 leng zai... (*cough*)
Felix helping Ben lagi.... -___-" Gai 0o Ben.. ^^

Lastly a photo of 2 sexy ladies... Muaxxx~

NEXT: 3rd March 2009 Lunch with Christina and Dinner with Fong, Fong's Bro, G, XY and sis..

Lunch with Christina @ Soho

My Dinner... Of course its mushroom sauce... LoL~

Dinner @ Morrison Hotel... Steak were a bit burnt.. But sauce not bad.. @@
Dessert @ Freestyle... ^^
My bday cake wah... Too sweet.... I wont eat... Fong's actually.. LoL~Saw their fingers? Candle konon... ^^"

NEXT: 4th March 2009 - My bday dinner with Jamie.. ^^

Dinner with Jamie @

My bday celebration this year... ^^" Haha~~~ 多姿多彩??? ^^