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最近戀上...

以前從不沾酒的我，
以前連Shandy也沒喝過的我，
現在已與它變好友了...

是生活的無奈
還是人生的歷練
還是看化了人世間的事物
改變了我？

Care .vs. Control

The reason I adviced you not to eat too much fatty food,
It's because too much fats are bad for health...
And because I care...

The reason I adviced you not to eat too much rice,
It's because you said you wanna lose weight,
And because I care...

The reason I adviced you to cut down on coffee,
It's because too much caffeine is bad for health
And because I care...

The reason I adviced you to cut down on Coke or carbonated drinks,
It's because the colouring and sugar level deteriorates your health
And because I care...

The reason I adviced you to quit smoking,
It's because you are not a heavy smoker and it's easy for you to quit
That's because I care...

I never point a gun at you to do what I adviced you to do.. You could just ignore what I said.. But that would only show how much I meant to you.. All I did was because I care, but what I get in return?

I CONTROL TOO MUCH... Haha~ What a joke..
A stupid reason you told others because you did not want to admit what you did wrong..
Now I know I made the right decision to leave...
Because you can't BE A MAN to admit why did I leave..

Heartache

Heart in thousand pieces
Shattered like a broken mirror
Seeing reflections on the broken pieces
All I saw was a lady crying in the mirror
I asked her why are you shedding tears
She kept quiet and pointed at her heart
Suddenly felt my heart was being stabbed
By a knife that is cutting it slowly
Only then I know why and deeply understand...

何謂真愛？

人往往用遠距離戀愛很辛苦當藉口，
那是否想過生死之別的距離又有多苦...？
只有真愛才是經得起考驗的...
可是世上有多少個是真愛
真愛是可遇不可求的...
何必為一個不值得妳傷心難過的人催淚

不要愛一個讓妳心碎、不珍惜妳的人，
愛一個值得你愛且又愛惜妳的人...
愛妳的人不會狠心讓妳心碎，
因為他只覺得把妳捧在手心是他最大的幸福
他只會不惜一切的永遠毫無保留、毫無怨言的愛你疼你...

Dilemma

人往往就是这样
读书的时候 希望快点毕业
因为毕业了工作了觉得自己变成大人了
可是毕业了以后
就开始烦找工作
找不到工作 就开始懊恼 开始有压力
找到了工作 却因为工作的种种压力喘不过气
找到了工作 就代表着生活一切都要靠自己
找到了工作 就开始有很多很多的责任
有时 这些责任、这些压力
真地会令人很难受

是因为责任感太重了吗？
是因为太负责任了吗？
不是
是因为责任与工资成了反比
是
是因为无法就这样抛下工作逃避另找其他
是自己的良心过不去

我错了 应该好好享受读书时的点滴

泪

最近泪腺特别发达
也不懂得为什么
突然泪水就一直流个不停

最近小小的事情
都会弄得人家不开心
小小的发现
都会弄得人家想多多
真的不懂为什么

尤其今天
整晚泪不停的滴
不管怎样
真的很谢谢你、你、你……
当然尤其是你
谢谢你们的忍耐
谢谢你们的关怀
谢谢你们全部全部的小动作
谢谢你们让我觉得安慰……

鬱悶

無聊 真的很無聊
每天過著這樣的生活
真的覺得很迷失
天天過著打工的生活
讀了那麼多書
難道就為了打工嗎？
打的是值得的還沒關係
也不能說不值得
就是感覺沒意義
唉 真的很無奈

Long Time No Seee..

So sienz..... Sorry for not updating lately....
My life is just bored and dry.. Haha~
Nth special.. So bear with my bare blog.... TQ..~~

我要耳根清净

天天听到你说工作很累
所以不想怎样怎样
所以要我怎样怎样
今天我工作完了
整个人都快崩溃了
在公司差点晕倒
对的 太累了
又睡不好
最近半夜老是突然醒来
早睡也睡不到
工作回来
叫你帮我打通电话
电话就在你隔壁
因为我也不知道电话号码
结果你说你很累
我也说我也很累
结果被你骂得狗血淋头
说什么年纪大的
说什么工作忙了一整天的
说什么工作没停过
我火气也来了
不过只能忍气吞声
因为懒得跟你吵
回去才发泄
工作9点上班还可以迟到
5点可以准时收工
晚上11点睡觉
一觉到天亮
早上我去上班都还在睡
更不用说我差不多天天都OT了
真的无语了
就打一通电话而已 就只要将两句
有那么累吗？
不是我不爱这里 只是这里真的令我太累了…………

...疑问...

是我要求高...?
是我要求多...?
是我小气...?
是我易怒...?
是我被宠坏...?
是我小心眼...?
是我有大小姐脾气...?
是我脾气暴躁...?
是我任性...?
是我固执...?
唉 算了吧 节哀 阿门 都是我不对...

Work....

15 January 2010

Just started to work this Monday as a VT in an accounting firm. I am still not used to waking up that early… This morning was struggling out of bed again… Continuously 4 days having headache… @@ Gosh… In office now, but doing nothing still… Yesterday before office hours ended at 5pm, I had been sitting here doing nothing for 2 hours…Guess it’s because I am still new, people can’t assign me much work… @@ So boring… @@ I am feeling sleepy again… Can’t online, can’t do anything while waiting for people to assign me something...

19 January 2010

2nd week working.... OT-ed these two days.. Have a feeling tomorrow have to OT too... Sigh... =___= VT jek... 2nd week jek.... Needa OT edi.. =.=""" This week friends wanna shout me out for lunch also can't... Cause I have been out doing field job in Sepangar since Friday til today.... Tomorrow have to go back to Sepangar again.... But the client's office really nice lah..~~ Quite relaxing and huge..... Although we didn't have the time to relax....

First Post of 2010

Okie... I know first post of the year should be about new year resolution and stuffs.. Haha~ But I have been busy slacking and packing and buying stuffs for the past few days to write a new year resolution... So could I pleaseeee keep it till I am back from Taiwan or maybe wait till Chinese New Year..? LoLz~~

YES!! I am in Taiwan...~~ With Ying, Sha and someone.... Oh yeahhh~~ ^^ Happy me.... Another threesome trip~ The three of us meet again in another foreign country after their last visit to Brisbane about 2 years ago..? ^^

Btw... I am here to describe about my 1st day trip in Taiwan... Flight delayed for an hour in KK.. So arrived Taiwan an hour late... Poor Ah Zip waited in the hotel he works (Novotel) for another hour... Haha~ Cause others are only arriving the next day so I had to stay at his place for a night.... Bla bla bla.. Long story.... I had my first experience sitting on a scooter... OMG..... SOOOOOooo scary!!!! I am so gonna say NOOO to my papa who always wanted to buy a bike... =.= Arrived his place.... Then went to 7-11 to buy some drink.... 1st drink in my mind... Of course.... PLUM GREEN TEA!!!! The one I always drank in Brisbane.... OMG~~~ My first sip of the drink was so satisfying and refreshing..... Gooosebumps~~~ >.< Reminded me of many stuffs in Brisbane.... =) After 7-11, went back to Ah Zip's place.... It looked dodgy from the outside... But its really comfy inside...

Next morning, it was drizzling... Oh no.... After gargling my mouth with my favourite and brushing up.... We went back to Novotel for brunch while waiting for others to arrive.... The hotel is freakin awesome!! Dame pretty.. Its only opened for less than 2 months... So having buffet there sureeee awesome too~~ I had freshhhhhh salmon sashimi and sorbet... They had this wasabi flavoured sorbet...... Iuh... But forget my dieting plan, period pain, headache etc... Aiya...! Eat only lahh!!! ^^ After that Zip brought me to visit their showroom, fitness centre and pool... The pool area is freakin awesome too!! Bet dad would love the design.... @@ Their rooms are dame cool too.. I especially love their magic window in their bathroom..... ^^

Then, went to airport to meet up with someone and Ying... Both different terminal.. =.=" After checking into our hotel, called Sha but she was still with Sylvia's mom... So we went ShiLin night market and started our shopping journey... Please don't ask how much we spent.... Ying and I shopped till we didn't wanna know how much did we spend.. Haha~ We are definitely coming back to this night market again as Sha hvnt pay her visit to this awesome place yet... ^^

Tomorrow, Zhong Xiao Road shopping!! Oh no... I wonder how long my cash will last me..... @@

Last post of the year

First of all, Happy last day of 2009...
Recalling back to what a year I had this year
Really brought back heaps of memories
Lots of tears shed
Lots of memories to mark on my memorabilia
Lots of things happened that changed me
Lots of things happened that made a large change in my life
Few friendships went down to drain
Gained many new friends that treasure me
There were really lots of ups and downs in my year 2009
Guess this is the year that really made me grow up
Made me grown to be more mature
Made me know the world out there better
All these gains and losses really build a stronger inner me

Experiences
This year I experienced a lot
A change of friendship
Some turned bad and some got better and closer
Change of personalities of people I care
Losing trust on someone I trusted
Disappointments again and again
How someone you trust could actually hurt you deeply
and so on...

Gains
A life
Another certificate
An Australian PR
More friends that I treasure
New good friends whom treasure me for who I am not for what I have
and someone who treasures and cares

Losses
Time and youth
Friends that I considered as good friends

Flashing back on all these...
Looks like I gained more this year than things I lose
I would not look back and stop at this point
I am looking forward to the years that are coming ahead
A future that is waiting for me to build
A path that is waiting for me to walk
A career that is waiting for me to work hard on
A whole new experience that is waiting for me to explore.......

Good Bye 2009 and Hola 2010......

Perplexity

Am I just demanding too much?
Or do I have the right to be demanding?
Am I too selfish?
Or do I have the right to be selfish?
Am I exaggerating?
Or do I have the right to exaggerate?
Am I too imaginative?
Or do I have the right to imaginative?
Am I bothering too much?
Or do I have the right to bother?
Do I deserve to be treated that way?
Or do I deserve better?
Maybe I am just not worthy enough....
Maybe I am just not special enough....

Found this is my drawer....

Today... When I was trying to clean up my drawer.... I found this......
Gosh... I swear I won't be able to write this kinda essay anymore.... Never remember I could write Chinese that well... Hahahaha~~ Cleaning up my drawer really brought back lotsa memories.... I found all my certificates I had obtained since I was a kid.... Found letters I got from my friends when I was in high school.. Love letter from first love... Diaries I wrote when I was young and silly... Diaries on the guy I adored..... Book that I wrote down my sms with someone.... LoLz... Youth..... Hahahahaha~~~~~~ I did do many silly things.... These all have sentimental value that I would never wanna throw away.. Because it represents my past....

Contradiction

A month ago I can't wait to come back home
Back for less than a month
I can't wait to go back to Brisbane..
Sigh....

I am starting to miss my dears in Brisbane...
Starting to miss my life full of freedom
Starting to miss my lonely life
Starting to miss my quiet life
Starting to miss Brisbane's clean and quietness....

我的最爱

绿茶一直是我的最爱
总之是绿茶味的东东
我都超级超级喜爱
今天突然想学学人家 hi tea
拿了那杯在韩国买的绿茶拉铁
又拿了妹妹的绿茶生日蛋糕
坐在电脑前面看刑IV
呵呵 真的很怀念旧的港片
真的不爱看现代的港片
终是在做些争风吃醋的剧情
什么溏心风暴啦、富贵门啦什么的
没有一个我看得完的
难道是我怀旧吗? 哈哈~~

离别

Never thought that hearing the news of your sudden decision to leave
Will make me shed tear
Will make me so upset
Although we have known each other for few years
Only this year we started to hang out more
I wished I could turn back the time
And tell myself how worthy you are as a friend
How adorable you are as a friend
Times that we spent together
Things that we had done together
How nice and caring you are
How helpful you are as a friend
How great you are as a friend
All these flashed back into my mind...
How I wished I could fly back to Brisbane....
Before your departure...
I can't believe that I would not even be able to see you when I am back in Brisbane....
I will definitely miss you....

Graduated again..

My classmates in Tafe.. The one in red is my teacher....

With luck, I accidentally passed my Diploma in Interpreting... In our Mandarin class of 13, I am one of the 3 who passed.. Opps... ^^" Haha~ Yeah.. Difficult.. Some failed some had to wait for resit next year..... Passed my QUT unit too.... Not bad lah... This semester quite smooth despite friendship problems...

However, due to my stoopid holiday to Korea.... (stoopid because of the stupid tour guide.. Wil update about it..) I missed my graduation ceremony... ^^" So nothing much...... Actually lots to update but too lazy.... ^^